~ Friday, June 15, 2007
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sunday - at balii looked at you, wondering how things turned out like that.but i found no answer.it felt stupid being thereand the Lord said:whoever puts his hand into the plow and looks back is not fit for the service of His kingdommonday - in buruit was a relief to know that we arent in the same group,though i really wanted to know if it were well at your side.but i guess it's less awkward this wayy.but still, there air around felt different.it was uncomfortable and weird.then the Lord spoke again:giving half is as good as giving none at alli broke down in tears, feeling extremely bad.i knew i had let Him down.tuesday- second day in Burui woke up, knowing that something has to be done.God will not send me here to do nothing at all.so later, when the kids came.i took up the challenge of teaching chinese to a group of 13 yr olds.no doubt, i was afraid but i knew that God will be there.i looked at the kids wondering what to say: wan shang hao?they stared at me.i guess i've said it wrong.so i decided to jump straight into the lesson.it was weird but it got better!thank God! (:later at night,we went to the 'jetty' to look at the stars.they were pretty! (:but behind me, he was telling the story which i had asked but he didnt not bother to say much about.the pretty stars couldnt make up for that.the role that i used to play was now given to him,(i am sure he'll do a good job)but the question is: had i messed it up?i really didnt know what to sayyy.i stood before the Lord in tears,asking if i had let Him down in anyway,praying hard that he would take me back if i did.i really, really wanted to give it my all.(but sometimes, it just isnt easy.)i read the word and it said:we are not saved through good works but faith and faith alone.we shall not boast in our own GOOD WORKS but in CHIRST ALONE.why this verse?i didnt think much.wednesday- third day in Buruwe started sharing and realised that we really arent doing much if we do not share the Lord with the kids. we will be there for a month but who will be there after that. yes, the Lord will definitely be there but how are they supposed to know if we who do, do not share Him with them.the Lord spoke to some and we decided that His name should be lifted and we should share His word with them.it was amazing! really.we sang this song in hokkien, a language that is understood by them.the lyrics went: come believe in Jesus for it is goood!we sang it to them and they got it real fast.and soon, we were all singing it together.it was real cool.then we sung other other songs, doing the actions and just truly enjoying ourselves, singing His praises. then i thought of the MM youths.if they who have never heard of Jesus could sing His praise with so much joy!why not us?at night, some saw shooting stars!i didnt. but i wondered what i would wish for if i saw one. xPsalvation of the people of Buru?salvation of our friendship?good results for my summer test?hahah! but i guess i really didnt need any.because the one who created them is the one with the ability to grant this wishes (:so i prayed instead (:thursday- last day in Burufirst morning out in the 'jetty'it was like an air-con room.really, really nice.just a pity, the sun rose on the other side.but nevertheless, thank God for the breeze and the company (:we sat there.poking fun at one another.sharing and later,praying together for the kids and the entire village..praying that salvation will fall on the land of Buru.
/ Moonlight / 2:06 AM /
