~ Sunday, July 09, 2006
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!
somebody please slap me awake lar!
i think i've been dreaming for way too long!
okay.. since you guys are the only few people who even know that i actually own a blog i shall let you into a secret.. haha.. i bet all of you already know but i still want to say.. xP
do you believe in brainwashing?
well, i used to or at least i brainwashed myself to believe so.
two years ago:
quiet and shy as you were, i noticed you.
i thought you were cute but i also thought that we were too young.
then i heard that you had another girl.
at that moment, a sudden surge of jealousy ran through me.
but when i heard that she loved you as much.
my heart melt.
i was happy knowing that you found true happiness.
i really was...
it was all until i saw how you fought to keep your faith.
how you struggle as you made a choice between God and her.
you cried...
it was then that my heart really broke.
it broke knowing that i couldnt do anything.
i wanted to comfort you but i just couldnt find the right words to say.
i prayed that God would be your strength as you go through that period.
and i was really proud of you when you returned from the retreat as a new man.
i knew that God honoured you because you chose to honour him.
you were significantly different.
but you are still that special person to me...
time passed and we became better friends?
or at least i was happy that we were talking.
many times, i really wanted to go straight up to you and say
"i like you!"
but somehow the words never came out right.
ironically they come out as
"you!!!! i wanna kill you!"
or something to that extent.
but if you really were to be gone,
i promise you another river...
a river of my tears for you..
(hahah. this one's exageratted! xP but i'll be sad for sure.)
recently:
during yf, haichong once ask:
do you have a special someone?
you are happy simply because he is happy.
you are sad strangly because he is sad.
when you are happy, he is the first person you want to share that happiness with.
when you are sad, the last person you wanna trouble is him.
you would think of him for no particular reason.
you would pray daily that God's blessing would never leave him.
you would do almost everything for him..
all that came to my mind was:
you. you. you. you. you. you. YOU!
as un-nice as you are to me, i think i really like you.
i wonder if i will ever have a place in your heart?
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
evidence of another unsuccessful session of brainwashing... i cant believe i ask you to study with me? gosh.. i must be mad lar.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
HORSE:
you should have never qnsed me! see lar. your fault!
EDRIC:
you should never have given me his blog address. it's your fault!
RACHEL:
it's your fault lar. this world got so many guys. why like one who does give two hoots about you?
/ Moonlight / 5:18 AM /
