~ Wednesday, October 12, 2005
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hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
i used to like this church alot. i even thought it was the perfect church! yes! the people are like superr on fire for God!!! they showed me a side of worship i had never experience for myself until i went there. they do not just peach about a certain topic and never act on it. they do not just follow God's commandments but God Himself. the Love, Kindness and patience is one you can never find just anywhere. their longing for God is just so undeniably obivious. whenever you step into their service hall, the presence of Our Father is just so inviting and soothing to the soul. and even the sermon is spoken as if God Himself were speaking to you. you will just leave the place with a special feeling in your heart, knowing that God is there with you.
hahaha. yes! this was indeed the church i intended to stay in, but did not due to parental objection. and eventually, God brought me to PLCMM. and i must say that it was rather amazing how i got there. hahah. it's a pretty long story. but well, i will be more than happy to tell you if you ask. hahaha. yup. i will always remember someone once said something along this lines "do not look for THE PERFECT CHURCH becus there is NO perfect church. and even if there was it wont be as perfect as it was before once you joined it becus it was perfect without you. and how can a church possibly be perfect with inperfect sinners? go to a church God brings you to." and i totally agree! that's precisely why i never regretted staying in PLCMM. ((x
hahaha. i honestly do not disagree when people say that MM youths are very unfriendly and stuff. but well, i can safely say that i do the best that i can and i believe that everyone else does too. hahah. please do not think that i am saying this becus they come from the same church as i do or becus they are one of my dearest friends. but yes! they may be towards the quiet side but honestly they are really nice people to be with. as in WONDERFUL! hahaha. they are really sweet kiddds! yup. just like me! xP lol.
hahahh. actually something happened yesterday between myself and someone from the other church. i guess it was more or less my fault for bring insensitive and stuff. well, that's what happens most of the time when i get high and stuff. it's then when i just say whatever comes to my head which then leads to unintended happiness.
okayyy. let's just go to the back of my head for a feww moments. yup. you will know i tend to keep alot of things i dont intend to keep but just cannot help but remember at the veryy back of my head or at least in some corner whereby it is unvisited or least visited. but of course, there are times whereby everthing just gets so mixed up that the just flow from everywhere. and i can tell you it feels really awful, in this times of confusion, anger and heart-aching moments. you just simply cannot control what you think. please note that thinking and doing are two very different things. just as thiking of killing someone doesnt make you a murder, thinking about something doesnt make it anything without action.
so anyway backk to this stupid thing i have at the back of my head. this thoughts were obivously provoked by some crappy news, facts, statistics and even gossips? yes! you are right! i have always been full of praise for that church. but i failed to notice how the entire thing actually seems to be operating, until it was highlighted to me. the dressing and behavior of certain authorative figures. the extent of which they go in bringing people to church. (verry good but sometimes it is really gets on the nerves of people.). the great empathise on prosperity and especially money. the wordd "market" from the mouths of many just brings across this idea that they are tring to sell you something. blahs. didnt i already tell you that action does it all? hahaa.
okayy. this idea brought across by a certain group of people just makes me feel very uneasy and irritated about a certain issue. i dont know but the idea of superiority comes in. it's like almost as if to say that only this church is a saving church. only this church is worth going to. i can see that they are really trying very hard to bring people to church. (please note the word church.) but i dont see the point is trying to get people of other churches to go to your church. it's like almost as good as encouraging church-hopping? want bring people to christ. bring the non-christians to your church. let them get to know God better through you and your church. sorry, but somehow i just feel this wayy.
hahah. i already said i am sorry. if you think that action speaks louder than words. i would slap myself for being so insensitive. hahahh. you are really a very nice guy if not for you ahemm nature. i believe you would too, do it in action. forgive and forget! xP
/ Moonlight / 9:31 PM /
