~ Tuesday, September 06, 2005
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Recently, it suddenly struck me. Is it the way I live my life that makes people think that I just simply live it to get it over and done with? Is that why they make such insensitive comments? Comments like, “Like you even bothered about anything.” , “You are stressed? What a joke!” , “Don’t be so childish lar.” and so on.
If you think that looking happy is all that makes a happy man. Then I tell you. You have never been so wrong. Looking positive is just but a disguise to deceive one’s negative inside. But of course, everything has an end point. Nobody can live each day, brain-washing himself day after day. If someone could tolerate your insensitivity, surely there is something more. Nobody would tolerate your nonsense. Not unless there is love. But I guess I can’t ask for much since I too, make up that population of insensitive people.
How would you define the term FRIENDS?
Are they, people whom you know?
Are they, people who work with you?
Are they, people who happen to be in the same school or church as you?
Or are they, simply just people whom you hang out with?
I have many friends if I defined the term friend as people I know. And I still have quite a large number if I narrowed it down to people I spend time with. Quite a sum if I said people whom I enjoy my time with. A pretty decent sum if I said those who believe that I would keep their secrets. And quite a number whom I believe will keep secrets. But if I were to define it as those who are willingly to share thick and thin, I would say none. Of course in theory, everyone would say yes. But just ask them simple stuff and see how they will respond.
Sorry. I am currently very busy.
Sorry. I have got to catch that show.
Sorry. I have to spend time with my books.
Sorry. I need to sleep.
Sorry. Sorry. Sorry. If you get it, I just do not have time for you lar.
Now, the second question is whether or not, one can live without friends?
I guess it differs with every individual
People often say to me, “you won’t understand because you have so many friends.” But the truth is I do not, I just merely know more people than themselves. And if the answer to the second question posted were to be yes. I guess I would have been dead by now.
Okay. Now you may say I am idiotic.
31 august 2005
/ Moonlight / 4:15 AM /
