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~ Wednesday, May 11, 2005 ~

i just realised that my chinese is still quite terrible despite the fact that i have been learning it for over ten years. lol. it is quite a sad fact isnt it. this was what happened...
in the evening, i called my tuition kids to inform them about the upcoming family day our church was organising. and great! for one of them, a mother picked up and started talking in chinese. so i was like trying to tell her about the event but she just didnt get it somehow and told me to call a little later when her girl would be home. gees. how insulting. hahaha. well, i guess it's time i should start practising speaking in chinese. lol. after all, it's a chinese church, reaching out to quite a number of chinese people, including afew china girls who i surprising can communicate with. hahaha. yeah! i am determined to learn the professional way of speaking chinese! after all, china would be a big market in years to come! LOL! okay, maybe not so soon. one shouldnt be too greedy, just well enough to communicate would be just good. hahaha. yupx.

the world is stressful
is it the world or is it just the competitive and kiasu us? yes. there are no doubt lots of tests, exams, cross-country races, table tennis, basketball and badminton matches all involving people like us. and everyone is just going insane over them. people study from the moment they open their eyes to the time they close them. some work non-stop in hope of getting a raise in status/salary. while others train for years just to win that single gold medal. are these things really that worth so much of our time and effort? and how long will these things last?

status, wealth and fame. what more are these things than just mere worldly posessions? like what my grandma always tell my siblings and i, "aiyo. so much money for what? die also cannot bring into the coffin with you. you come there empty, go also empty. hold your money so tight also no use." hahaha. indeed it's very true. these things will at the very most last you a lifetime but not eternity. but ironically, many people are so blinded by the things of this earth that they fail to see the real treasure that is installed for them, the treasure that would last them for eternity.

i admit that i myself am guilty of this too. hahaha. so many a times, we humans think that we can accomplish all things with our own strength. but having been through it so many times, i realised that we cant, simply because we are not God. sometimes, you try and take everything into your own hands and end up screwing everything up only to realise it only takes a prayer to solve the tiny thing. and why i dont see why people fight over almost every other thing, be it money, positions, houses or even people. like the saying goes, "whatever is meant to be yours will always be yours but whatever is not will never be." anyway, in times whereby you feel weak or down, just remember: God is so strong, so powerful and mighty, there's nothing He cannot do for me or you. trust in him and he will honour you!

Lord, i just pray that we learn to trust in you everyday of our lives, knowing that you have the best plan for us. and now i just wanna commit tmr's bio test into your hands. i also pray for my fellow brothers and sisters and they take their respective tests/exams. i pray that lord, you will just be there with us to guide us and go through the test with us. that you will give us your peace at heart as we strive to do our best. i pray that as we go through our daily lives, we will remember why we do things and who are are doing it for. Amen.