~ Saturday, May 07, 2005
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Lord, we were once so united and joyful, singing freely in your prescene but look at us now. Everyone's just fighting for their own rights, thinking of what would suit them the best. but who has ever thought what would be the best for cell? Prehaps it's just the generation gap. We simply do not understand one another and thus cannot connect with each other.
A statement was made saying that we(the youths) have got no respect for the elders. I admit that i, as well as many others are guitly. For that, i would like to apologise. And since it is brought up, we will try and imrpove on it.
it was also mentioned that our behavior/attitude is not up to expectations. to this, i also agree to a certain extent. but as behavior/attitude are terms subjective to different individuals. my understanding of good behavior may not be what you understand from the same two words and thus it is more of an opinion than anything else. here, i think that as long as we know what we are doing, who we are doing it for and are doing it with joy and happiness, the attitude is there.
somebody brought up that God should be the centre of cell and God should be the reason for us going to cell. but questions if that were really the case. yes, i agree that many a times we look like we are going there just for fun and play and in some cases it might even be true. this questions more of the individuals themselves. but think about it, why of all places the church? a place whereby rules are set and are to be obeyed. why?
the elders think that cell should be serious and solom. but i think otherwise and i believe some others would agree with me. yes. we should be serious when we come to God but should there not be a sense of belonging, joy and love? what is cell when you come together with a group of people which you call your family, just to feel so stressed up and uneasy? isnt this no different from the world around us?
the elders defination of cell is leadership training with its primary aim to train young leaders that will be able to lead the church and its secondary aim to fellowship. yes. it is indeed a good thing to have such trainings and stuff. but do you not agree that fellowship is more important. what good is a bunch of supposedly "well trained" leaders when it only ends there? you can train a whole bunch of youths but do you not agree that in order for them to really be able to lead, they have be of one heart and mind. the church is a body of people and not one person alone, it can never stand on its own nor one single person's leading/opinion.
they say you are free to voice your opinions during this time of sharing. but just look and see, how many of the youths actually open their mouths and say anything. the answer is almost none. honestly, i do not really know why either. but for myself, i personally had quite alot to say but the words just didnt come out. it was there but something told me that i shouldnt say it. i usaually find whenever i say something that goes against the system, it just naturally gets rebuted. sometimes, i wonder if it even got through. [when i told my mum about haichong's apology. she immediately questioned me asking why is it that the adult should apologise to the kids in front of so many people.] i am not trying to put my mum down, but isnt this reaction due to ego?
well, i guess humans will always be humans. and we cant just depend on ourselves alone. we need someone to be in charge. we need someone to guide us. we need someone to show us the way out of this darkness. Lord, we need you. please be our guide and show us your way. we know that in order to run this race, we need perseverance and strength lord. i pray that as we run this race to eternity lord, our eyes will be fixed on you. we do not want to be put down be the circumstances for the things around us will never change but we can. i just pray that you will solve all the misunderstandings among your people lord. we wanna serve you lord. but we know that we cannot if we do not first start with ourselves being right with you. lord, i just wanna be right with you. lord, be our light, guide us. Amen.
/ Moonlight / 9:39 AM /
